It Was Long Overdue!

The beautiful view from our room! Atlantic City, NJ...my first getaway in about eight years!!! Can you believe it??!! EIGHT YEARS!!! It was great...we had such a wonderful time. My boyfriend and I spent time together, just us, we ate out, stayed in, watched tv, we went swimming, he worked out while I tanned, we walked the boardwalk (which was gorgeous by the way), we toured the hotel, we had drinks, we danced, we laughed, we found a Dunkin Donuts and a Wawa (lol). It was perfect! And it was definitely long overdue...we'll be back in the summer with the kids.

Mental Mudslide

Mental mudslide pushing me off the edge

Collision course set for disaster

And I think of life thereafter.

Anticipating my interaction with karma as it hunts me down...

As it rocks me

And feeds me

What is so undeserved.

Channeled thoughts clutching onto my frail intellect

As it emphasizes on the clear path I must select

To generate a safeguard for this calamity...

Running into road blocks of confusion and vanity.

Running towards you as you turn your back

Towards the wrong direction.

Do you have a confession?

Overlooking all I see,

Misunderstood creatively

As you paint your path angelically for all who see.

A racing heart embarassed by its current stand still

Never did I believe it could be so relentless.

Perpetually deprived emotionally

Oblivious to the upcoming catastrophe

Accompanied by its finality

Holding on tight...it beats for you, my life, my family

Struggling to retain this portion of my reliant spirit,

Unable to think,

Unable to deem,

What's unacceptable and undeniable.

It's the reality versus what sets me apart...

The inevitable impact of a mental mudslide and a racing heart.

-just MAYSHA

©2009

Second, Third and Fourth Chances

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It is a common belief that when a person says or does something wrong that they're only given a certain amount of "chances" before they feel the "obligation" to never forgive or forget. It has occurred to me that maybe we all need a different number to live by. Maybe a person has angered or hurt you for a third time in your life, and maybe the fourth time can be "the time" when it finally gets better or what we would consider back to normal. How would you ever know if your standards are set on 3 strikes and your out? Maybe we should focus on all the good things in life so that the bad things won't seem to matter as much anymore. I figure if we can still dig up good memories and they make us smile, then maybe their is hope. I sure can't live my life wondering what if. The Bible tells us that for a relationship to succeed, communication is key. I think it's time that I practice what I preach before it's too late.
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Time...Where Has it Gone?

It's amazing how time flies...It seems like it was just yesterday when I wrote my prior post. Things are moving so quickly. In only two more months, the baby is going to be 1yr. old... already. She stands up by herself and walks while she's holding on, and she crawls so fast. My oldest is 3 going on 30...she thinks that she knows it all, and that no one can tell her anything. That she can do what she wants. Soon she'll be on her way to school. Boy oh boy, I have no babies anymore. It really is true, that if you blink...you miss everything. I don't want to miss anything...I want to always be there.
Aware.
Protecting.
Embracing.
Supporting.

Today is a sad day...I feel quite emotional.

To think... I'll have to let go one day.

Is a mother ever prepared???