Friday, June 8, 2007

Paying Price of Honesty

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I went clothes shopping a few weeks ago...and I remember the frustration as I tried on all the clothes that interested me.

It was one dress after another.

Of course the complex is because I gained a considerable amount of weight since I first married and had my children. All I could think was that everything I put on made me look even fatter than I already am...but the ironic thing is that I was shopping at a store for BIG people. You would think that their clothes would be more flattering for our silhouettes. But NOOOOO, maybe their objective is that we create more of a complex for ourselves so that we can finally decide to lose weight. I don't know...but like I wasn't already feeling down in the dumps, and felt like I needed something to eat...right when I'm taking the last dress off...my oldest starts pushing her finger on my stomach saying: "Boing, boing, boing."

Oh.......I wanted to cry! I couldn't believe it. My three year old!!! Then she felt the need to mention, like she hadn't already done enough damage: "Mom, your big," then starts to giggle.

Needless to say, I didn't buy anything. I put my clothes back on, and I left.
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4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I remember you telling me this story. She is just being a 3 year old...
You still look beautiful!

Just Me said...

Thank you very much...but I'm sure that's just because you see me through the eyes of love.

Menchie said...

gosh, i can totally relate. my son does the exact same thing on my tummy and says, "mommy, your tummy's so soft!"

he was also three then. i just tried on a strapless red sundress and I couldn't help thinking, this would look great if I were thinner. I didn't buy it either.

Nina said...

Hey girl, do you know how many versions of this I have lived thru? To this day, my kids still do that and you know how old they are! I will tell you this though, you could be a size 6 and be a bitch and no one would care for you or you could be the size you are now, be beautiful inside and out and have all of us love you the way we do!