just MAYSHA

Girl Time!!!

2010-05-05T21:38:00.002-05:00

It's that time again...the time where us girls sit and I polish and maybe design everyone's toe nails. This time to determine who would go first, we played a little game of "who can stay quiet the longest?" to see who would go first and who would get both the toes and finger nails polished. Surprisingly, Gianna won. While I was taking care of my itty bits feet, I notice that she has this lump on one of her big toes. So I ask her, "Does that hurt mamita?". To which she responds, "Yes momma, a little bit." With a bit of confusion, comes the next question out of my mouth, that I surely don't expect her to answer, and I say, "What is that?". Without hesitation, she replies, "It's my bone momma, it starts up here (upper thigh) and it goes all the way down my leg and it pops out there, because it can swim around like fish". What do you say to that? Oh, the things I learn from girl time!
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These Kids

2010-04-27T22:39:00.002-05:00

The kids...these kids...they grow so fast. Just yesterday it felt like I had my oldest. Now she's 6, looking at me while she bursts into laughter, and tells me about a funny paragraph she is currently reading in a book. Not only does she read (English and Spanish)...she actually concentrates on what she's reading and she understands!!! She says words like actually, however, familiar, and excited. I DON'T UNDERSTAND!! Where did the time go?? My middle child is a Diva...she just knows that she is a princess and she is all about her looks and her clothes, AND SHE'S ONLY 5!! She likes to speak matter of factly, and is so intuitive...it's unbelievable. My youngest, she is very much attached to my hip. To no surprise, I'm sure, she's the baby. Still so very grown...she tries to tell me what to do with her little people syndrome, my itty bits. Only going to be 4!! She is the boss of them for sure. LOL...I miss my babies, when they used to fit in only one of my arms and they couldn't speak. However, it is surely an adventure to watch them grow and become little women. My little ones are growing up...what can I do??

It Was Long Overdue!

2010-03-15T12:25:00.003-05:00

The beautiful view from our room! Atlantic City, NJ...my first getaway in about eight years!!! Can you believe it??!! EIGHT YEARS!!! It was great...we had such a wonderful time. My boyfriend and I spent time together, just us, we ate out, stayed in, watched tv, we went swimming, he worked out while I tanned, we walked the boardwalk (which was gorgeous by the way), we toured the hotel, we had drinks, we danced, we laughed, we found a Dunkin Donuts and a Wawa (lol). It was perfect! And it was definitely long overdue...we'll be back in the summer with the kids.

Happy New Year!!!!

2010-01-04T22:43:00.004-05:00

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A night full of laughter and enjoyment, surrounded by family and friends, the people that mean the most, never ending smiles, followed by the audacity of hugs and love, as we all countdown
10
9
8
7
6
5
4
3
2
1
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!! and we all toast a drink and laugh the night away as we have another chance to make the best out of a wonderful year

WILL YOU MAKE THE BEST OF YOURS?
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Mental Mudslide

2009-12-22T12:42:00.004-05:00

Mental mudslide pushing me off the edge

Collision course set for disaster

And I think of life thereafter.

Anticipating my interaction with karma as it hunts me down...

As it rocks me

And feeds me

What is so undeserved.

Channeled thoughts clutching onto my frail intellect

As it emphasizes on the clear path I must select

To generate a safeguard for this calamity...

Running into road blocks of confusion and vanity.

Running towards you as you turn your back

Towards the wrong direction.

Do you have a confession?

Overlooking all I see,

Misunderstood creatively

As you paint your path angelically for all who see.

A racing heart embarassed by its current stand still

Never did I believe it could be so relentless.

Perpetually deprived emotionally

Oblivious to the upcoming catastrophe

Accompanied by its finality

Holding on tight...it beats for you, my life, my family

Struggling to retain this portion of my reliant spirit,

Unable to think,

Unable to deem,

What's unacceptable and undeniable.

It's the reality versus what sets me apart...

The inevitable impact of a mental mudslide and a racing heart.

-just MAYSHA

Vacation

2009-12-22T09:57:00.004-05:00

So we get a little bit of snow and suddenly the kids have off until after the new year. What kinda s*#t is that?! That's almost three weeks out of school!!! Now I have to worry about the house getting messier than it already is, about them trying to get into the gifts (because they would be sure to get the youngest to open them), and about them burning enough energy without driving my boyfriend crazy...lol. It will be fun to say the least. Merry Christmas everyone!

Let It Snow!!!

2009-12-18T15:20:00.004-05:00

So it seems that i had fallen off of the face of the Earth...lol. Well I'm back!!!! I'm sitting here at work wondering what I'm going to do this weekend. Kids are going away for the weekend with their dad, and me and my honey will have each other through the wonderful snow that's coming tonight. Really? It really has to snow? I have shopping to do!!! I think I might be taking the rides anyway, regardless of the snow. We'll just try to act like we don't see it. Wish me luck!

Beat of the Heart...

2009-04-15T12:29:00.006-05:00

Serenated by the sound

of the beat of your heart,

************************Constantly humming

************************with the beat of mine,

Trapped in the desire

to love you indefinitely,

*****************As i watch you lay here

********************right beside me. .

My Soothing World

2009-03-27T15:50:00.002-05:00

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Serenity grows on trees.
That’s what I say.
Breezing through the air
As it strolls my way.

Demanding all the stress
Isolated in the heart
While insisting in providing
Calmness as an art.

Relentlessly speaking
By the sound of the ocean
Relaxing your mind
And soothing emotions.

Persistently searching
For my famished soul.
It’s finally reached me
And tranquility flows.
*

Romance?

2009-03-23T22:47:00.002-05:00

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Wounded marks on an open heart
Once taught to love constantly.
Abruptly barred from its home
Without understanding the severity
Of raid issued at the core
That leaks of emptiness
On this desolate road
That leads to nothing but
Bitterness, rage, anger & sadness.
Scorned by acts of trust
That enticed your cruelty
In allowing me to believe in romance
That never existed and never will.
How does my fuming heart
Sway itself in turning its back,
On what at one time
Seemed to be the love of my life?
Edify me, for I stand ignorant
To love in all forms.
*

All of Me 2 U

2009-03-10T22:42:00.003-05:00

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What little I have
I offer to you.
All of me
I'm giving to you.
I give you my heart
To handle with care.
I promise you now
I'll always be there.
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My Star

2009-03-10T11:43:00.005-05:00

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A fallen star has found me...
*****In my galaxy he lives
*****In my sky he shines
*****In my eyes he sparkles
*****In my heart he finds...
Everything he needed
To help break his fall.
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Intuition vs Independence

2009-03-01T13:10:00.005-05:00

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I didn't realize until yesterday how important it is to listen to my intuition, to my heart. Even for what can seem so small, it can turn out to be so crucial. The most important thing in my life can be affected in ways that I would never want to cause. My suggestion for the day is to hold close what's important in your life and hold closer what is special and precious, so that you're careful to never lose it because of careless independence. Put your guard down for things that are worth it and humble yourself to take a hit when you deserve it. Appreciate your life...whatever life may define for you. I sure appreciate mine and it comes in the form of a wonderful man that loves me and that I love with all of my heart.
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Art Of Love

2009-02-15T22:51:00.003-05:00

Tenacity and the egocentric alliance between you and I
Encountered by the equation of life itself,
Drastically expresses the art of one loving blind
Recreating the heart on a daily basis to love more than one self.

-My

See Me Through Me

2009-02-09T18:44:00.006-05:00

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Sweet derangement covers me
As I let all craziness mark a sorry epoch in my life.
Dwelling on the loving agony
That sustains me and keeps me from evil happiness.
Envisage pleasuring insanity
Gazing over me as disaster soothes my very core.

Can you make any sense of me?
If there is such a pointless facade...

-My

How Do You Deal

2008-12-10T16:16:00.004-05:00

How do you deal?
Jekyll & Hyde roaming the area at a pace misunderstood by man.
A monster unleashed, ravaging through illusory emotions.
Merely attempting to grasp reality through antagonism
Affecting your proximity to love and affection
On a rota controlled by nature consistent in time.
How do you deal?

I Love You

2008-11-17T10:32:00.006-05:00

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Pondering on the very moment that I realized I loved you...
Desiring in my heart that you too would fathom it
And that in your heart you would feel the same way.
It appears that in those very moments
The sentiment was equally shared, both very much in love
And it was then that I gathered that in my life you would stay.

At the wake of every morning I stare into your face
With my heart pounding right out of my body
And jumping right into yours, and everyday
You meticulously hold my heart, as it is yours.

I no longer wonder if you love me, for everyday your eyes
They remind me. That mien, the air of love
Barraging onto my deserted heart in dire need of hydration.
Words are short to express the part you take in my soul
They are no avail to what's trapped in my heart
So daily I'll feed my love, to build on this timeless foundation.

I love you, I love you, I love you.

-My
©2008, Maysha Arce
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Hello

2008-09-25T19:02:00.003-05:00

Turn to time in itself

And say:

"Time where have you gone?"

Find what keeps you from

Doing what you love most...

Then try to find in your heart

Which of the two you love more.

Is it a pleasure?

Or is it a must?

Regardless of the two,

Know that in my heart,

In my thoughts,

In my life,

Lives you.

Strength & Courage

2008-06-27T11:30:00.005-05:00

I find myself beseeching for the strength
To carry this burden I put on myself.
At the fault of no other but only my own
I find myself in intense agony
Rethinking confident decisions
That once seemed so justified.

I find myself longing to have the courage
To remedy my pleasuring mistakes
That have become overbearing
With the time invested around my actions.
Reliving a different era in my life
To accommodate my true self in life once again.

-My

What Is?

2008-06-12T08:34:00.006-05:00

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What is sanity,
In comparison to the
Absurdity of the world?

What is time,

But digits on a watch

Mandating our every action?

What is space,

But the distance kept

Between two mysterious objects?

What is trust,

But the mere opportunity

To be scorned?

What is loyalty,
But the lost hope
Of infidelity?

What is life,

But the ache

Of lost love

In a place

Of uncertainty

With the ability

To diminish

At the sacrifice

Of no other?

What Is?

Leave Me Be Me

2008-04-25T08:56:00.009-05:00

Expose myself,

do it!

Speak my mind,

do it!

Why inhibit myself?

Only you want to do it.

I just want to let go.

I want to be free

of these traitorous thoughts.

Only you want to soak it all in.

Let me let go please.

I swear I need to.

I want to be happy,

But you won't allow me to be.

Why do you want me to ache?

I can't bear this pain any longer.

I can fix it,

I really can.

Stop making me

Fear the inevitable.

I realize what your trying to teach me,

But I no longer want to learn.

I beg you to let me out of this disaster.

For I won't live

If it's with you.

A Little More About Me

2008-04-22T13:27:00.004-05:00

Everyday we wake up and face life's unexpected surprises, not knowing what it will bring. We go through life trying to figure out how people think, and what we should and should not do to get the best things out of life, not necessarily for our self, but for other's views of us. But, you know, when you take so much time in worrying how to figure other people out, you kind of lose sight of the things that matter the most in life. Like figuring yourself out and knowing where you need to be. What do I need to do for myself? What do I need to be happy? Who do I have in my life now that puts a great big smile on my face? I think I realized that today, a little roughly, but I did. Thank you for the rude awakening and thank you to all of those wonderful people who are in my life on a daily basis no matter what...you know who you are.

Sacrifice

2008-03-27T09:50:00.007-05:00

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Nothing justifies purposely hurting a human being
Wth the sole reason that you've been hurt in the past.

We can talk about pain for hours...
But I choose not to.

I do know that the WORLD didn't hurt me...

Therefore everyone deserves a chance at love and happiness
And maybe a little bit of trust.
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"Love"

2008-02-26T10:59:00.003-05:00

Love

is a fictional

state of mind.

What do you think?

Friend

2008-02-20T15:23:00.001-05:00

Friend…
Dear friend…
Where are you these days?
At the peek of the early sunrise
I search…
But I can’t find…
A part of me seems lost
In the air of the distant day.
Unable to find rest
At the mercy of a forbidden night.
Friend…
Dear friend…
Where might you be today?
I need you desperately
I search…
But I can’t find…

me.

Superbowl!!!

2008-02-04T10:01:00.000-05:00

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How about that superbowl?!!

I was so dissapointed that the Patriots went a whole season undefeated and still managed to lose the Superbowl!!!!

It's okay...I'm starting to get over it...it was a good game...

What a weekend!

Freedom

2008-01-30T14:47:00.000-05:00

It's so interesting how writing works. Some days I can't think of anything at all to write, while on others the words, lyrics, sonnets, and/or verses just jump right out of my brain to give a beautiful shape or form to the black or gray stains that I doodle on a piece of paper. Then something amazing is created to express how many people in the world might feel, but cannot explain on their own, giving them something wonderful to read or listen to that relates to their specific need, desire and/or situation. The human ability to feel is like no other. To cry or laugh, be happy or sad...it sounds like freedom...to be who you want to be.

"Heaven"

2008-01-29T15:04:00.000-05:00

Morning sunlight creeps through the window
To clarify the presence of a beautiful day.
The smell of passion drifting through the air,
Over the sea of never ending happiness.
Strengthening your ability to wake and live another day
Full of powerful possibilities and surprises.
Moving towards the highlight of the sky
As love finds you in the most unusual way.
You can’t help but grin,
And take it in like the trees take the wind.
Moving you in different directions
All with the unbelievable feeling of lust and control.
Control momentarily lost in the abyss of pleasure
To only bring you back to the overwhelming consequence of your fall…
Looking directly into the eyes of love and turn away
Without accepting the hunger that is so clear in action
And take pride in the grace of your serenity.
Dying to unveil the weakness of the heart to such beauty
As nightfall slowly and painfully covers all undone
Leaving behind traces of footsteps taken
Clarifying the end of the most amazing day that you’ll ever live…
Until the beginning of the next.

-My

(written 1/25/08)

Right Now

2007-12-19T13:21:00.000-05:00

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We wonder about our day to day confrontation with life.
What will tomorrow bring us?
How did yesterday affect us?
But the best thing in life is to live the moment.
The present.
Right now.
That way we appreciate every minute of it...
And we know that it's not wasted...
Because every bit of it counts.
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Time

2007-11-14T08:39:00.000-05:00

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To try to convince yourself of the impossible is not very easy at all. In a prior post I tried to be optimistic in what's going on in my life. Some things just don't work out as you would like them to. You can die trying and if their is nothing there then it would be in vain. Maybe it's time to realize that it's time to move on although that may be hard. Some people will agree with me and others will not, but I can almost assure you that the ones that don't agree are the ones that don't understand and that never will. Maybe some would love to give another chance at love but just can't seem to find that flame. Judging eyes all around you make you so much more bitter that you want to just forget about it all. Time will tell if you can understand that.
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Second, Third and Fourth Chances

2007-10-27T13:53:00.000-05:00

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It is a common belief that when a person says or does something wrong that they're only given a certain amount of "chances" before they feel the "obligation" to never forgive or forget. It has occurred to me that maybe we all need a different number to live by. Maybe a person has angered or hurt you for a third time in your life, and maybe the fourth time can be "the time" when it finally gets better or what we would consider back to normal. How would you ever know if your standards are set on 3 strikes and your out? Maybe we should focus on all the good things in life so that the bad things won't seem to matter as much anymore. I figure if we can still dig up good memories and they make us smile, then maybe their is hope. I sure can't live my life wondering what if. The Bible tells us that for a relationship to succeed, communication is key. I think it's time that I practice what I preach before it's too late.
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Gloomy Days

2007-10-24T09:10:00.000-05:00

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Gloomy, gloomy day
Take me for a whirl
As I feel like you look.

Gloomy, gloomy day
Share your dreadful tears
With a soul that's in a daze.

Treat me to your beautiful music
Endulge me with your sympathy
And remind me that it's okay...

That it's okay to branch away
On to a different surface
And live until your no longer.

Gloomy, gloomy day
Embrace me
To get through...

Until the next sunrise.
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Life

2007-10-22T15:51:00.000-05:00

Life creeps up on you one day and catches you by surprise. No matter how much you plan for your life, it can always take you in several different directions. You imagine how many feelings you'll hurt, or how many people you'll make happy. Then suddenly you're confused. What?! It's an unbearable feeling to have to wonder where you'll be tomorrow. I'll let you know tomorrow how i feel then...

Deal with it!!!

2007-10-10T16:28:00.000-05:00

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The heart speaks
As it truly feels
The mind acts
As it is told
The body responds
By pure experience...
So why do some lack the maturity...
The maturity to deal with what is necessary?
So why do some lack the strength...
To deal with life and death?
So why do some lack the courage...
To deal with right and wrong
Why must we lack...
To deal with OURSELVES!

I often wonder why people respond to situations the way that they do...

Is it because of fear? Loneliness? Stupidity? Bitterness?
Hmm.
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Books, books, books!

2007-10-04T14:03:00.000-05:00

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Just the other day I was thinking that maybe I would like to try to write a book...

then I start thinking...where would i start from? what would i write about? would i even be any good?

I'm still wondering.

Maybe one day.

maybe!
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A boo boo...

2007-08-23T20:47:00.000-05:00

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So today I'm at work and I get a call from the babysitter...AND IT'S URGENT!!...so my heart is racing, I start to shake, and suddenly I want to cry.

I get on the phone...and just as I suspected...something was wrong.

THE BABY FELL, MY ONE YEAR OLD, AND HIT HER FACE ON THE COFFEE TABLE, AND CUT HER EYE!!!!

I know, it sounds a bit drastic, but all I could imagine was blood gushing from the side of her face and her eyeball hanging out.

But when I picked her up it was only about a centimeter long...and when I got to the hospital, she didn't even need stiches. They gave her an antibiotic for it...whew!!!

So she's ok and it didn't require an overnight stay at the hospital. That's a good thing.

She was back to normal in no time.

Poor mom almost had a heart attack.
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A New Home to Go Along With the New Job

2007-08-16T11:46:00.000-05:00

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I have a new home!!

It's wonderful!!

I have found an apartment that feels like a house when you're in it!!

And the best part of it all is that it's right over the office where I work!!

I go downstairs to work!!

Although I must say that it has been very hectic for the last 2 weeks. Because, you see, I got my new job and for the first week I worked both jobs so that I would not leave the other place high and dry with no notice...Then for the following week I had all of the packing to do so I got nothing done in my old house because THE MESS WAS EVERYWHERE!! Then this last weekend that went by we did the actual moving and now the mess has come from the old house to the new one. So I'll be having much fun unpacking and reorganizing for this week.

But it's still great that now we live in a much nicer area than before, with a much better feel of a house and I'M SO CLOSE TO WORK IT'S SICK!

I'm so happy, I'm so happy, I'm so happy, I'm so happy...Oh I forgot that I'm at work.

Better go and start doing something. Talk to you soon blogworld.
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Fresh Start

2007-07-26T09:17:00.000-05:00

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I HAVE FINALLY FOUND A NEW JOB!!!

A job that I deserve. A job that I like. A job that I plan on having for a long time.

I'm working first shift again, which means that I get to sleep all night...but...I don't see my babies all day again. I miss my girls very, very much. But at least they're just across the street with my cousin. So that's a good thing because I don't worry as much.

I feel like I'm almost normal again...I'm starting to remember things, I'm not as grouchy, and I have much more energy.

So I should be back to my daily reporting very soon.

**Have a good day Blogworld!!!**
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???

2007-06-10T21:18:00.000-05:00

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Is it here or there?

Have you ever felt it,
and let it go?

Have you ever seen it,
but blocked it with foolishness?

Have you barely touched it,
but ran away?

Turning your back
Towards a future you can't erase...

Have you ever been there?

I HAVE...
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Paying Price of Honesty

2007-06-08T06:58:00.000-05:00

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I went clothes shopping a few weeks ago...and I remember the frustration as I tried on all the clothes that interested me.

It was one dress after another.

Of course the complex is because I gained a considerable amount of weight since I first married and had my children. All I could think was that everything I put on made me look even fatter than I already am...but the ironic thing is that I was shopping at a store for BIG people. You would think that their clothes would be more flattering for our silhouettes. But NOOOOO, maybe their objective is that we create more of a complex for ourselves so that we can finally decide to lose weight. I don't know...but like I wasn't already feeling down in the dumps, and felt like I needed something to eat...right when I'm taking the last dress off...my oldest starts pushing her finger on my stomach saying: "Boing, boing, boing."

Oh.......I wanted to cry! I couldn't believe it. My three year old!!! Then she felt the need to mention, like she hadn't already done enough damage: "Mom, your big," then starts to giggle.

Needless to say, I didn't buy anything. I put my clothes back on, and I left.
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Night Owl

2007-06-04T22:40:00.000-05:00

Everyone is sleeping now...

Here I am just staring at the bright screen lighting up the dark and cozy room...

What are you doing?

Is anybody out there?

Is anybody watching me?

The street lights...brightening the cars parked behind one another on the damp street. It's been raining...and while others feel like they are rocked to sleep by the breezy mist of rain...it does nothing for me. Just staring at the brick building across the street, where the only lights on, are the ones in the laundry room on the bottom right corner of the building.

I wonder if anyone is there.

I see no movement.

Oh well...

After drinking some warm tea...this night owl is going to try to call it a day...

But tell me...what are you doing right now???

Share Life

2007-05-25T08:06:00.001-05:00

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Simply put...my girls are my life.

I stare at them, hoping that they'll just let me hold them forever as I want to squeeze them, and kiss them constantly. It's amazing how it seems that they've always been a part of your life, like they've always been there.

I'm drunk with love for my girls.

What can I say?... I'm the proud momma of two beauties.

My quote for today:
"LIFE IS WONDERFUL...WHEN YOU HAVE SOMEONE TO SHARE IT WITH. WHO DO YOU SHARE YOURS WITH?"
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A Wonderful New Book

2007-05-22T07:23:00.000-05:00

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I have a friend named Caroline Smailes, with whom I share the love of Simon Cowell with, and she is about to launch a very wonderful new book...

"IN SEARCH OF ADAM"

...and I was so excited to find out that they are selling 100 limited edition copies of the book (personally signed by the author herself), and it can be sent anywhere in the world for an extra shipping cost.

Needless to say that my copy is already ordered...and you should not hesitate to check it out and order yours before they're all gone.

I can't wait...I'm so excited!

Now I have to sit and wait...and bite all my nails off as I do it.

Have you seen Adam?
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Boring, Boring, Boring

2007-05-21T09:55:00.000-05:00

I decided that my blog was a little boring to look at. Sooooo, I decided to give it a change. A little more color, a little more life, a little more me.

Now I'm ready to blog.

So, HELLO BLOGWORLD! It's so nice to see you again. How is everyone?

I'm doing alright, I guess. My surgery went very well. Everything is much better now and unfortunately I'm back to work. This schedule that I'm working is very tiresome. It's killing me I tell you. I feel like a zombie most of the time. So the search is on for something new with a better schedule, better pay, and better benefits.

So I'll be keeping in touch...

Odd Absence???

2007-04-09T03:54:00.000-05:00

I have missed you very much dear Blogger...I feel as if I have set you aside, like I've abandoned you in many ways. I surely need to let loose some of my inner emotions.

Please listen.

Please listen.

Please listen.

I have come to some physical challenges. Some of which have kept me from working properly, both in the home and at the job. It's quite depressing actually... to not be able to work to my capacity knowing that they count on me very much. I'm kind of excited that I'll be having surgery. Nothing too serious...but it will make me all better again. Please forgive me as I will be away from you for a little longer...until I recover. Then I'll shall return and be stronger than ever.

Back to work!

Time...Where Has it Gone?

2007-03-09T20:00:00.000-05:00

It's amazing how time flies...It seems like it was just yesterday when I wrote my prior post. Things are moving so quickly. In only two more months, the baby is going to be 1yr. old... already. She stands up by herself and walks while she's holding on, and she crawls so fast. My oldest is 3 going on 30...she thinks that she knows it all, and that no one can tell her anything. That she can do what she wants. Soon she'll be on her way to school. Boy oh boy, I have no babies anymore. It really is true, that if you blink...you miss everything. I don't want to miss anything...I want to always be there.
Aware.
Protecting.
Embracing.
Supporting.

Today is a sad day...I feel quite emotional.

To think... I'll have to let go one day.

Is a mother ever prepared???

Let it Snow, Let it Snow, Let it Snow

2007-02-26T08:26:00.000-05:00

The snow has fallen once again, this little bit of snow has fallen...enough to make the roads very dangerous, but not enough to keep people home.

That's not very fun at all!

I keep hoping for a snow storm that puts us into a state of emergency. That way they shut everything down, no cars are allowed on the streets, and we get to have plenty of family time together...Watch movies, play board games (so that I can win), play in the snow together...take a break from life as we know it.

So I keep saying...let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!

Land of Life For an Extended Vacation

2007-02-24T18:33:00.000-05:00

Hi everyone...I'm back!! :)

Sorry for the extended absence...I was caught up in the land of "Life", forced to take an unexpected vacation.

Leo and I have gone through many changes in the last month. New jobs, new working hours, part-time to full-time, sick children, and learning how to adjust to it all.

Leo has found a new job that will take him from a temporary employee to a permanent one. FINALLY!!!! It's much busier than his prior job. He absolutely loves it, but he doesn't even have the time to call me during the day anymore.

I have adjusted my work hours, so I work full-time overnights now. It is quite difficult adjusting to not sleeping at all at night now, only sleeping for a few hours during the morning...if I don't have to juggle doctor's appointments in between. All of this and then we all got sick one right after the other, but I think I've gotten it all figured out now.

So, here I am, once again...I'm back!

Chocolate Lovers

2007-01-29T13:24:00.000-05:00

Leo and I were having a conversation about which chocolate is the best chocolate. We agree that the chocolate that we like the most is Hershey's Chocolate.
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Specifically, I enjoy Hershey's Milk Chocolate Bar with Almonds
the most.

It's an addiction!!!

It's just so smooth and just talking about it waters my mouth.

I wonder what the favorite chocolates are around the world.

So...I tag each and every chocolate lover...to share their favorite chocolate craving.

Sounds delicious already!!!
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Reality

2007-01-25T12:43:00.000-05:00

I have been trying to get a promotion at work for some time now...but for some reason or another, it hasn't been possible. I need to work fulltime now, not just to get the promotion, but because we need the extra money.

Many people "say" that they would help if ever you need it; but when it comes to it...suddenly nobody is available, or nobody approves. Not even most of the family. I could count with one hand, and have fingers left over, of all the people that have or will actually sacrifice themselves just to help out, and my hat's off to you.

Thank You!

You know who you are...Some day it'll come back around for you.

Change

2007-01-23T17:25:00.000-05:00

I'm the type of person that likes change. I enjoy new restaurants, new decorations, new surprises, etc. It's fun for me. I've been wanting to change the look on my blog for some time now. I chose this look because the name of it is Harbor, and in some ways, it kept calling to me. I don't know if it's that the name is in the title of Leo's first book, or because of the "homey" feeling that I get from it. Either way I feel very peaceful and calm when I look at this page. So I hope that everyone feels right at home with my new look.

Welcome everyone!
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American Idol

2007-01-17T08:22:00.000-05:00

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OMG!!!

I got a full two hours of Simon Cowell last night. The new season of American Idol has begun...and Simon is what I like to call...HOT!!! Leo says I'm crazy...but I don't think so...Am I? Am I?! I don't think so...

I'm so excited!!!! Tonight I get to see him again. Caroline, I don't know what to do with myself.

Imagination

2007-01-04T14:50:00.000-05:00

My three year old has gotten to an age where her imagination is interesting...she has an imaginary friend (superman-i wonder who's fault is that?), she makes her toys talk (i mean she has whole conversations with them), and she comes up with the funniest stories. Here's the story of the day:

She says that the man is in a truck, next to the street that has a door...oh no, wait...the door on the street is his personal elevator now. Then she introduces me to his mother and his friend whom are also riding in the car, sorry truck, with him.

Children are so smart...where do they come up with this stuff? I'm such a proud mother...

Alphabet

2007-01-02T09:48:00.000-05:00

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Leo and Sharon J have tagged me...and I tag anyone and everyone who wants to do this. I'm not sure what happened to letter H, but if someone can come up with something let me know. Enjoy!

A is for age: 24 years old. (Once i hit 25...that's where I'm sticking. That's a good number for me)
B is for beer of choice: Yuengling Black & Tan or Heineken
C is for career: Currently in retail, but future goals are to be a Cosmetologist specializing in Hair Styling and Makeup...amongst other things.
D is for favorite Drink: For the moment it's Cherry Coke...I'M ADDICTED!!
E is for Essential item you use everyday: hands
F is for Favorite song at the moment: Let Her Cry by Hootie & the Blowfish
G is for favorite Game: It used to be Monopoly...but Leo ruined it for me. I like the game of Life.
I is for Instruments played: None. Although I've always wanted to play the flute and I used to play the recorder in school.
J is for favorite Juice: Orange (with the pulp).
K is for Kids: 2 amazing girls.
L is for last kiss: Leo before he left for work.
M is for marriage: 4 1/2 years. July makes 5 already...time flies.
N is for full Name: Maysha Arce
O is for Overnight hospital stays: A few times...3 times by the time I was about 8 or 9...and 2 more times for the birth of our daughters.
P is for phobias: I prefer not to share...it kind of freaks me out that other people know what it is.
Q is for quote: The best proof of love is trust. Joyce Brothers
R is for biggest Regret: None. I've learned from all of my mistakes and if I would have done anything differently, then I might not be where I am now...with the people that I love.
S is for sports: Football, Softball and Volleyball.
T is for Time you wake up: 1:30am 5 days a week and at about 8 or 9am the other 2 days.
U is for color underwear: Baby Blue
V is for Vegetable you love: Corn.
W is for Worst Habit: Biting my nails.
X is for X-rays you’ve had: My teeth.
Y is for Yummy food you make: Pork Chops.
Z is for zodiac sign: Leo. Although I don’t read it or believe in it.

Our Children

2007-01-02T09:27:00.000-05:00

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I dread the thought of my daughters one day being teenagers...I like where they're at now. One is 3 and the other is 7 months. I wonder...or better said...I worry about not doing everything I am supposed to do as a parent, going wrong somewhere through the timeline. You only have one chance to get it right, one chance to impact in their lives, one chance to be a good parent... I can't help but wonder, will I get it right? I remember being 14...Times weren't easy then, your mind is a scramble, there is a lot you don't understand. How will they see me? Will they be ashamed of me? Will they hate me?

Can't we just stop time?
Can't we keep them this way forever?

I wish

1-2-3 Tag

2006-12-24T10:24:00.000-05:00

I saw this on Leo and Menchie's blog...thought it to be interesting and fun

1. Grab the book closest to you.
2. Open to page 123 and go down to the fifth sentence.
3. Post the text of next 3 sentences on your blog.
4. Name the book and the author.
5. Tag three people.

Elizabeth quietly answered "Undoubtedly;"-and after an awkward pause, they returned to the rest of the family. Charlotte did not stay much longer, and Elizabeth was then left to reflect on what she had heard. It was a long time before she became at all reconciled to the idea of so unsuitable a match.
-Pride & Prejudice, Jane Austen

I'm not sure who has not been tagged, so I also tag the world.

Aging

2006-12-24T09:04:00.000-05:00

It's amazing how one day you can be running clear across a field like it's nothing, working two shifts for three consecutive days, and staying up all night while you're doing it all...then suddenly you have a bad knee, you're overweight, you have terrible back pains, and you just can't keep up with the world.

This week has been very busy for us at work...since I work in retail. I have gotten out of work, to come home and sleep, to get up and go back to work again...and I am EXHAUSTED. I can't stay awake throughout the day and my body is constantly aching, nonstop... WHAT'S GOING ON?!!!... this can't be happening. I am NOT old.

I've come to the conclusion that I'm working to hard and that maybe I should stop working...YEAH RIGHT! Then I awoke from my precious dream.

Maybe someday...Hey, there's nothing wrong with dreaming.

Tag of Four

2006-12-19T16:21:00.000-05:00

I was tagged by Leo...I enjoy being tagged.
Here we go...

Four jobs I’ve had:
1) Cashier
2) Customer Service Manager
3) Training Coordinator
4) Jewelry Department Manager

Four places I’ve lived:
1) Chester, Pennsylvania
2) Dover, Delaware
3) Cidra, Puerto Rico
4) New Castle, Delaware

Four favorite foods:
1) Ice Cream
2) Rice and Beans
3) Chicken (dark meat)
4) Chicken Cheesesteak

Four movies I could watch over and over:
1) Pride and Prejudice
2) Ever After
3) The Lake House
4) Never Been Kissed

Four TV shows I enjoy:
1) Extreme Makeover- Home Edition
2) Heroes
3) How Do I Look?
4) Clean House

Four places I’ve traveled:
1) Puerto Rico
2) Springfield, MA
3) Orlando, FL (Disneyworld)
4) New York

Four places I’d like to visit:
1) Tuscany, Italy
2) London, England
3) Paris, France
4) Canada

Four websites I go to daily:
1) Comcast.net (for my email)
2) My Bank website
3) My blogroll
4) Realtor.com (I am so ready for a house)

Four people I tag to do this list:
I only thought of two that haven't done it yet...
Menchie, Sharon J

Shoplifter

2006-12-16T07:52:00.000-05:00

I was at work this morning...another day as usual. Same routines, same procedures, then...THIS MAN TRIED TO RUN OUT OF THE STORE WITH A 20" LCD TELEVISION!!! Yes you heard right...tried to run out of the front doors, with about ten people standing there waiting for him, with the television stuffed in his jacket. Needless to say, he didn't get away. He was tackled like a man holding a football. He was arrested and nobody was seriously injured. That guy must have been the dumbest criminal of the week.

I can't believe that he would still try to get away with such a thing, even though he knew that management was aware of the situation and that we were waiting for him to try and leave the store with the merchandise.

It was indeed a very interesting (and funny) workday.

Innocence of Children

2006-12-14T18:21:00.000-05:00

This morning while I was at work I was remembering something that happened while we were at the mall. When we went into the store, the first place I stopped at to look was purses and wallets and more purses. Well, when my eldest sees me pick up different purses and wallets and saying how nice I thought they were...she starts doing the same thing. Finally she picks up a wallet, and she asks me,

"This is pretty, right mommy?".

I say, "Sure honey, that's gorgeous."

So she looks up at me, with this confident look on her face, and she says, "Well I'm gonna buy it."($54)

I say, "But you don't have money to buy that ."

"Mom, I do have money." (A dollar and some change)

I said, "You don't have enough for it."

So she gets this somewhat sad look on her face as she tells me, "But I do have money and I want to buy it for YOU mommy."

It was such a touching moment...I wanted to cry. My baby wanted to buy me something with the little money that she had...she didn't care how much it cost, she was sure she was going to get that wallet for me.

Visitor

2006-12-13T09:00:00.000-05:00

I had a visitor today, her name is Irene. I visited her blog to get to know a little about her and found a great post called Don't Grow Old. Somehow that inspired me to write and this is what I came up with...short and not sure what it means, but here it is...

Rainy morning,
Gloomy day,
Strong emotions,
Limited space.
Show the other
On one side,
Your heart forgiving
The hurt of mine.

Bookworm Tag

2006-12-13T07:49:00.000-05:00

BI've been tagged for the very first time by Menchie...I'm so excited. I must warn you that I'm not as big a reader as Leo, so there were some questions that I skipped. Here it goes...

1. Book/s that changed my life-
A Child Called It by Dave Pelzer- I read this book after I was married with Leo, before I had children. I couldn't believe what I was reading!

2. Book you’ve read more than once-
A Child Called It by Dave Pelzer and The Harbor House by Leo

3. Book you’d want on a desert island-
Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen...I love the movie, but without electronics, I would definitely want to have the book.

4. Book that made you laugh-
Pippi Longstockings...I read all her books in the fifth grade.

5. Book that made you cry-
A Child called It (again)...that book impacted me very much.

6. Book you are reading at the moment
Pride and Prejudice

7. Book you’ve been meaning to read
The Lost Boy by Dave Pelzer (Sequel to A Child Called It)

8. Three authors whose books you will always buy or read, no questions asked
Dave Pelzer, Jane Austen and John Grisham.

9. Forget the book and just watch the movie
Freaky Friday

The Mall

2006-12-12T14:41:00.000-05:00

Taking the children to the mall....I don't know what I was thinking. I went into Macy's...(whom I had a boatload of problems with over a gift card)...and my eldest starts by behaving very well, then 20 minutes later she thinks she can start hiding from me in the store...then she wants to start beating on her little sister (who thinks that it's funny)...so my eldest gets mad because the little one thinks it's funny, so she starts to scream at her saying, "IT'S NOT FUNNY!". At this point my face looks like a tomato and i kneel down to her level and start to warn her about what's going to happen when we get to the car...so she starts to scream and cry because she doesn't want to be disciplined. Then she's upset because I won't let her leave my side....at this point I'm sure that she can see the anger and the frustration in my face...then it happens...She looks up at me and with her tearful puppy eyes she says, "Mommy, pick me up please".

I'm thinking, "Why is she acting this way?" Finally we pay and get out of the store and when we get to the car I remember...she got her flu shot earlier today. How could I forget? I'm such a bad mommy. Then I gave her some chocolate and she fell asleep on the ride home.

Library Madness

2006-12-11T09:40:00.000-05:00

I just called the library to renew some movies that we had borrowed...and the lady let me know that the systems were down, and that they could be down for about 2 days. I said, "Oh man, that sucks...but I'll be alright bringing them back on Wednesday, since I called in, right?" She said no...that they would probably charge me the late fees. Even though I called in to renew, since their systems were down I would still get the late fees. How wrong is that?!!! It's their fault...they should be able to take names and account numbers down and forgive those late fees. It wasn't anyone elses fault that their systems were down. Sorry...just going on and on about it.
I'll just return their movies today. I am so disappointed!

Monopoly

2006-12-10T22:11:00.000-05:00

So yesterday I find myself playing Monopoly with Leo again. I don't know why I do it...but everytime he asks to play...I do it, I put myself in that situation. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy playing the game. It's just that after a while Leo doesn't seem to like the game anymore.
I still like to play and when he asks me again, odds are that I will probably play again.

Maybe one day I'll let him win one... :-)

The Beginning

2006-12-10T06:16:00.001-05:00

My husband Leo has been telling me for a long time to start my own blog. He tells me it can be about anything I want it to be. So I figure it can be fun, and well, what the heck let's give it a try. Of course, I don't know why I decided to start at 5 o'clock in the morning, like it couldn't wait until later in the day when most sane people are up.

I actually work the graveyard shift but I'm home sick today, so I'm used to being up at this time (plus my 6-month old woke me up to eat). Anyway, maybe I should get back to bed, to get some sleep (for about another hour), before my 3-yr old wakes up.